College life is getting the most of me. All I do is go to work and study. I’m physically, emotionally and even spiritually drained. I need help but it isn’t available. I don’t know anymore. 

Here’s to 3 more years and a semester.



How crazy is it that I haven’t properly blogged in so long? Sadly, I’ve been real busy and it sucks because I really enjoyed blogging. Too bad it’s not really a priority. I sometimes wish I could be one of those people who have so much time in their hands they can do things like blogging all the time. But it’s not me.

Anyways that’s not what I’m trying to write about today. I just want to write a life update kind of thing. There are so many exciting  things happening! 

So a little background info, I have always wanted a Corgi literally for the longest time. Recently, my boyfriend offered to get me a dog. At first I didn’t think it was going to be a corgi because it was such a spontaneous idea and it’s just super expensive, and I was just really excited to get a dog I didn’t mind the breed. But then I started to look for people who sell Corgi puppies and I happen so stumble upon an ad on KSL. It wasnt a purebred its half. It was also half the price of a purebred Corgi. Honestly I didn’t get the purebred because it wasn’t going to be ready until September and I wanted a dog a soon as possible!

So there were six puppies in the litter there were four girls and 2 boys. They’re going to be ready on July 16th which is this Sunday! I am literally sooo excited!!! I went to pick out the puppies on the 24th of June. They were only four weeks old. 

This is the one I chose, she’s so cute and she was actually quite calm. I decided to name her Jellybean. Funny story, when my boyfriend and I were thinking of names he suggested Lafawnda and the name stuck for a little and I wanted to call her fawn for a bit but I decided I wanted to call her Bean, and her full name would be Jellybean.

This is her at 6 weeks, her ears are starting to perk up which is so cute!

She looks so freaking cute I am already so obsessed! The first thing I bought for her is her ID tag. It’s bone shaped and it’s got a cute princess crown on it because she’s going to be our little princess. 

Now this is my jellybean at 7 weeks! I can’t wait to take her home. 

I havent bought a lot of her things yet because I’m trying to be sneaky. My dad does not know I’m getting a dog, he’s the one against it. Luckily, my mom agreed and my baby will be here on the 16th! Literally 2 more days I cannot wait. I wanted to take her home the day I saw her! So the plan on Sunday is to wake up early and drive to Heber to get my baby. Then take her shopping afterwards. She’s already getting spoiled on the first day.

I’m actually planning on buying the essentials on Saturday, so she’ll have food and everything once she gets home. I have been dreaming about this day since literally like 5th grade. Finally seven years later, it’s going to happen! Believe in your dreams kids. 


Hello world! Wow it has been so long ever since I last blogged publicly. I missed it so much. I have been very busy, senior year is so stressful! I planned to restart this blog during new years but I got busy until now. But finally I am able to blog and catch up again! Boy there are so many things I want to write about I have no clue where to begin. Let’s just start with a little life update.

First of all with school – it has been so stressful. Second quarter just ended and I feel like a huge weight got lifted off my shoulders. I was not being a good child during second quarter and I skipped a few classes which caused me to have grades lower than an A. It was a pain in the ass. Also calculus became imposible for me because I stopped paying attention (probably not a good idea). I’m taking an EMT class and that’s about the only class I can tolerate. I actually started my hospital clinicals today which was super exciting and exhausting at the same time. So I got accepted to five colleges: The U, SUU, Snow, Dixie, and Westminster. I got a full ride scholarship to SUU and I got a scholarship from Dixie as well. But I really want a go to the U. It’s the most convenient for me and they have a good nursing program. The only thing is its so expensive. Whereas, if I go to SUU I don’t need to pay for tuition. Ugh decisions decisions…

 Life update health – I am trying to be the healthiest that I can be. I have been going to the gym everyday ever since the year started and I have been (trying) to eat healthy. I’m gonna be honest I struggled with that today because I think I’m about to get my period and my crazy cravings were kicking in. But so far I think I’ve been doing really well. 

Life update relationship – My boyfriend and I are dating for almost a year now. I can’t believe our one year is in less than two months. Everything’s great. You have your occasional pettiness (mostly from me) but this is the happiest I’ve ever been and that’s something I always like to remember. 

That’s all I can think of, so far, Christmas and New Years was fun I got to celebrate NYE and Christmas Eve with my boyfriend. I think this new year is gonna be pretty lit. I definitely will have more freedom than ever. I’m graduating in four months and starting college in eight. Oh how time flies.


Freedom and fireworks always the best combination.
Well this particular independence day was pretty surreal, because my boyfriend met my parents. Alright before you start thinking How is that a big deal? That’s pretty normal, well its not normal for me because my parents don’t let me date, to be honest they don’t let me do a lot of things. They’re Asian and as strict as Asian parents can be. So it all started when I showed my mom the promise ring that my boyfriend gave me, and then I told her that we’re dating and I told her everything. The next day, my mom decided to tell my dad and after my dad examined my ring he immediately wanted to meet my boyfriend literally on the fourth of July.

It was honestly like a freakin’ interview, if you’re Asian you should know how crazy Asian parents can be especially when the find out that their daughter has a boyfriend. My parents asked all sorts of questions What do you like about my daughter? How do you respect her?  What are your plans for the future?  Why did you give her a ring? etc. Mad props to my boyfriend for surviving that interrogation. Honestly I’m impressed, because it can be pretty damn intimidating to talk to Asian parents. His answers were so sincere I was lowkey fangirling especially when he would talk about me. Best boyfriend award goes to him. Anyway he passed his interview and my parents left us to talk and hang out for awhile until he had to leave. It was so crazy that he finally met my parents and that they’re letting us date. It makes me happy that they saw how much he loves me and that they like him. After my boyfriend left, my parents and I went to park city to watch fireworks. They would mention him every once in awhile it was pretty funny. My mom even asked why he didn’t go with us, I had no idea I could have asked him to come (I was pretty salty because he could’ve been with me). Anyway I got starbucks because I got hungry while waiting for the fireworks (typical). img_20160704_234652.jpg
We got there pretty early so we waited a few hours until it started to get dark. I absolutely love the vibe of park city, it’s so calm and peaceful (atleast before the fireworks). img_20160705_003909.jpg

The sun went down and the fireworks came up, they were so pretty.

This is such a late post but I hope you all had a happy 4th of July! (If you don’t celebrate it I still hope that was a great day for you).


This day is going to be very memorable, I honestly can’t believe this fairy tale I’m living in is actually reality. I guess that’s what true love feels like; a fairy tale come true. I have blogged about him so many times, and also the gist of our story. Best friends who fell in love, and after two years of hidden feelings, we’re finally together. Just when I thought things couldn’t get any better, it did. My soul mate gave me a promise ring, and nine days later here I am still freaking out about it.img_20160629_213123.jpg
This ring symbolizes the promise of forever. A promise that it’ll be us until the end. That eventually we will get married and create a life together. A promise that he will be mine, and I am his until the end of time. A promise that we will love each other each and everyday of our lives. Falling in love with my best friend might be the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Even better than that? Having my best friend fall in love with me too.

Aren’t we just relationship goals? So funny story, he has been talking about getting promise rings for a long time now and he can’t really keep things a secret from me so he told me everything. He told me when he found a ring that he liked, when he bought it and he said he was giving it to me on my birthday (which is in October). But little did I know he was planning to give it to me as soon as possible. I’m actually quite surprised he pulled this one off because he can’t keep anything from me (and that’s a good thing). He made me believe that his mom took the box with the ring in it, but that was just so I would have no idea that he was planning on giving the ring to me the next time he sees me. img_20160629_175151.jpg
I really thought he was going to wait until my birthday to give me the ring, so I didn’t expect it. He showed me the ring on his finger and made a lame joke (; “My ring’s kind of too small…”  but it wasn’t his ring, it was the one he was giving to me and I honestly freaked out. My heart couldn’t handle it, he is honestly the cutest thing in the world. I became obsessed with the ring immediately and I’m still so obsessed with it. I can never stop looking at it. It’s absolutely gorgeous, and looking at it reminds me of the future that him and I will have.

Sometimes I have those pinch me is this real? moments, because this is everything that I have ever dreamed of. It’s so surreal that it’s actually happening. Three years ago, I never would have thought that the best friend I fell in love with, is in love with me too. I never would have thought that the guy of my dreams feels the same way about me. It’s crazy how fate works. I used to think I would never have a chance, he would never fall in love with me I’m just his best friend after all. So many things made me believe that we will never happen. Especially when he moved so far away from me. But little did I know, we were both so madly in love, and it was only a matter of time for those bottled up feelings to spill. Until finally, he told me he’s been in love with me and the rest is history. Have you ever been in love? If yes, then you must know how lucky you are that you found your other half. If not, then I wish for you to fall in love so deeply and be loved just as much because I’m telling you; being in love is the best god damn feeling in he entire world especially if it’s with the right person.




School’s finally out and so is the sun. I can definitely feel the summer heat. I’ve been on summer break for about a week now. It’s been fun and boring at the same time. I had a sleepover with my best friend who I haven’t seen in 2 years! So that was really fun, we had a lot of catching up to do.



Heres us being lame on snapchat.
Anyway and then obviously I got to see my boyfriend the weekend school ended so that was always amazing. He’s working a lot now though so I dont get to see or talk to him as often. I miss him so much! Our three months just passed actually! I cant wait to see him.
I also hung out with one of my asian friends and we had a little movie marathon. So I guess so far my summer’s alright. There are days when Im bored out of my mind. Its harder to hang out with people because of how strict my parents are, also I cant drive so its harder to go to places. Hopefully I get my license soon though! Thats one of my summer goals 😂

Im basically just trying to chill, see my boyfriend, work on my glo up, read a lot and not waste my summer. Im going to be a senior next school year. Thats so crazy! Im really just trying to have a nice summer. Ill keep you guys updated! How’s your summer going? Got any plans?


May 26, 2016

I know what you’re thinking, FINALLY SCHOOL IS OVER! I am honestly so happy school’s out. I dont think I can bear any more of the stress and misery that school has been giving me. My last day was on Thursday. It was yearbook day, I didn’t even buy a yearbook but I still wanted to go to see my boyfriend and just chill with him the whole day, which we did.
(By the way he’s super cute he got me roses, chocolates and books that day)


I feel so special, he’s honestly the best thing in the world. I have no words for him, I’m so lucky to be his princess.
Anyway here’s a selfie of us just chilling from that day.


Dont mind my face, but he is so cute.
We literally just sat there all day and just talked with friends. It was a pretty chill day. Nothing better than ending the year with your favorite person. I also gave him a little scrapbook that I made


So we looked over that a couple of times as well. I’m actually really proud of this creation. I stayed up all night trying to perfect it. I wanted it to look cute and everything. I think I pulled it off…almost. But then again, Im not the craftiest person ever.

I’m so glad it’s finally summer break. Junior year was the most fun yet most stressful year of all. I really need a 3 month break, away from all the high expectations and the pressure of school. I have so much expectations this summer. I don’t want it to be super boring but I also want it to just be chill. There are a few people I’d want to hang out with and catch up with. I also want to do a lot of things for my own time like read(a lot), bike more (I really enjoy it), run? (I mean I have a treadmill I guess), lots of pamper sessions (lets get that glo up).
I also need to get ready for college stuff since I’ll be applying this upcoming November. I am so excited but  Im also scared. I can’t believe Im going to be a senior and I have one year left of high school. It seams so unreal. Im pretty excited for senior year though, but for now Im trying to make this summer last!

PROM 2016

April 23rd 2016 – The City Library
So it’s prom season and I finally got to go to my first ever prom. It was pretty fun, I went with my homegirls. Everyone looked amazing in their dresses! I didn’t go to the day activity because I had an appointment and I took like 3 hours to get ready because I wanted to make sure my hair would stay curly the whole night (it fell after an hour of dancing). Anyway getting ready is always super fun, it’s nice to get dolled up every once in a while.


This was my prom dress, it goes down to my knees. I didn’t want a long dress because Im super short and I don’t want to trip all over the place! This dress is super cute, and not too flashy.
Ofcourse I took like 200 selfies! (Partly because I needed a perfect selfie to send to my boyfriend) Unfortunately he wasn’t able to go but that’s okay we still got Senior prom! So it was just me and my girls, we definitely looked fire last night.
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April 2nd, 2016: Vivint Arena
I was able to go see Justin 2 weeks ago for his purpose tour. It was honestly one of the best nights of my life! Being able to see him perform again was a blessing. He never fails to surprise his fans. The concert was so intimate, and there were parts when it was just him, his song, and his fans. The way he connects with the fans is incredible. There were parts where he would sit on stage and let the fans hold his hand. It was a beautiful thing to see Justin doing what he loves and being with the fans. There was an equal amount of mellow and hyped performances. The acoustic sessions was amazing. The dance moves were fire as well. It was truly a concert to remember. I can’t wait til he comes back!


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So Spring the season where it gets a little bit warmer and the flowers begin to bloom. Supposedly, spring started on the 20th of March which is 9 days ago…well unless you live in my state then there’s no such thing as Spring. It was literally winter yesterday! It snowed all day, which was a bit annoying because I was so ready to wear all of my floral dresses! (and everyone knows how much I love wearing my dresses). Today isn’t that great either, it’s pretty chilly outside! Good thing I’m staying in my room, with a nice cup of tea on my bedside table. A very cozy day indeed (except for the fact that I’m sick and I feel like shit)
Anyway it’s almost April! that means plenty of things. First of all, Justin Bieber’s concert is this week! I am most excited, I can’t wait to see what he has in store for the Purpose Tour! Second, that means it will be a month since we became official. And by we, I mean Jose and I. Yes I am dating my best friend, like wow finally. I never really blogged about us being official, I just wrote a remembrance poem about it. But yes it was on March 3rd, 2016 that we became official. Our love story started way before that though, which is pretty cute. It took two years for everything to fall perfectly into place, and I love how everything turned out between us. (maybe I’ll blog about our story, but for now I’ll just leave it here.) Read More »