It sucks I wish I can make it stop. That feeling in my stomach. I know those emotions all too well. Wish I didn’t put you through that. I’ve felt that say so many times. I didn’t mean to ruin it. I’m sorry. I would change what happened if I could. I think it’s funny I’m book smart but not so smart with decisions. Something I’ll regret forever. My past that’s haunting me until this day. Sorry it wasn’t special enough. To me it was.
My eyes hurt still from last time. I should sleep. Wow test tomorrow. I’m so tired I wish I can take a day off. I don’t know what to do. I just want you to feel better. Yeah it’s my fault for being fucking stupid. My mind’s racing. Too many thoughts I should just shut down my system. I’ll just sleep. 0041